Reflecting on it, I have realised when I get psychotic it tends to originate from a single phrase or image roaring round my mind and becoming an obsession that makes me start to see the world differently.
A phrase my brain makes up or comes across, that is usually quite poetic, that makes me feel I’m either receiving a special message from some bigger force or that I am some genius who can see the true nature of all things in a special clarity and creativity.
The more I have become aware of this the more I have avoided the symbols or topics that trigger me towards getting like this but actually I’ve realised I also use another coping strategy. Drawing them out. How I see them. In complex patterns, how in the moment I see the world. Here are some examples of close up inclusions of these phrases in drawings. Once I get them on paper I’ve done something with them and it seems to stop it from circling round my mind and leading to psychosis. This is a very important strategy for me.