I’ve had a shit day. A truly difficult day- my transition to adult services is going terribly despite my team’s constant reassurances that it wouldn’t, my therapist was half an hour late to our hour session and although she was so apologetic, it was horrible as at the time I was convinced the Team had left me or she or her children had been in an accident. I’m having pretty horrific, realistic nightmares that when I wake up from for weeks after I struggle to differentiate whether details in them were real or not and I’m hallucinating rotting flesh, which has driven me to carrying blades around with me. My mind is playing tricks with me and mental illness is cruel.
That said, thanks to kind twitter friends who seem to always know just what is needed and this song I heard from Nurse Jackie (an amazing show which has been a great distraction for me) I am saying Fuck it. I can do this. We all can.
Half Smile it out (DBT reference)
Make pancakes
Stroke a pet
Look up cute animals on google
Write an angry letter to your disorder stubbornly refusing to let it win
Sit on the floor with some comfy cushions, do a crossword and listen to Stephen Fry read a children’s audiobook
Rant on social media if you must
Watch Nurse Jackie!
And listen to this beautiful song…
Take Care x
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